I start every post by apologizing for not keeping up with my writing...so again, I apologize. I think part of the problem is that I am just turning inward so much lately. I am avoiding people and just keeping to myself (and family). I don't feel like sharing much, and am just holding it all in as much as possible. I really feel like I'm in hibernation. Waiting for winter to be over, waiting for something...not sure what...to happen. Yet though we've just gotten another big shot of snow, I somehow feel that Spring is eminent. I think the days getting longer is helping. Let's face it, winter where I live is depressing unless you are into snowmobiling, skiing, or otherwise freezing your butt off - which I am not. Wake me when it's over!!!
The stress of our lives this past year has changed everything. Not a day goes by that I don't worry about what will happen to us. Will we lose our home and have to move out of state in order to be able to make a living? Will we ever get past the pain of this winter's events? I don't know, I don't have any answers. I know I just need to hang onto some hope, and I am working on that. Baby steps.
